I Hope You Need This Now

whoaaa

2007-08-05T00:03:23Z

i forgot i had this hahaha

does anyone use this anymore?!

sometimes

2007-01-09T17:08:39Z

you really need to take a good look at where you are, and who you are.

and see if its really what you want.

people are nothing.

mm

2006-11-21T17:32:38Z

life..
how interesting.

i want

2006-10-12T14:23:53Z

to sit here and cry all day.
asjklahksjlhdkjahdkahsjkhdasjkhdajkshdkjashklajs;

6 daysss

2006-10-10T14:23:56Z

it's amazinggg.
whoa..

i'm confused though
i dont want to come back : (
i want to stay on vacation and hide away : (

with 2 people i care about :D
ahahah
minus andrea :(
but she could come visit?
bleh..
i want to stay there
and hide : (

<3333

basically i feel

2006-10-05T16:07:46Z

like shit..
bleh.

i have no motivation for anything..
im so like..
jaded.

mmm

2006-09-29T14:23:24Z

today is even worse..
it just keeps building up eh?

god..
this is so dumb
safhskdlhkjsdf

today

2006-09-28T17:56:27Z

is so depressing omfg..

life

2006-09-27T14:23:49Z

im really tired of all the drama thats been going around.
i thought maybe since i wasnt in high school really..or associated myself with people in hs. that itd kind of cool down.
guess its just where ever you are in life.
sucks a lot..

im excited to see mike.
and go to fl with dezi.
itll be amazing.
so much fun.

im afraid to go to work today
i think theyre gonna fire me..
ughh.

im over life.
everything just seems to be going wrong..
if its not one thing
its another.

hopefully this trip will help to get me and dezi away from everything.

ugh.
have a good day people.
ill be online again from 9-11.
peace.<3

asdoijsd had to save it somewhere.

2006-09-18T20:06:54Z

http://www.priceline.com/vacations/Lang/en-us/hotelListings.asp?session_key=3F0011AC400011AC2006091820043851e6c0266490&plf=lfco&pkid=ah

need to update a little

2006-08-05T03:32:29Z

sicne last time
my bf of 2 yrs..
has cheated on me more than once.
i forgave him and forgav ehim
and i dont think i can do it again.

i went to fl
it was fun
but sad
id ont know what kind of trip it was
but im scared thats the last time ill ever see him.

a lot of stuff has went wrong lately
but i guess thats life.

i miss my life
i miss my love.

i miss everything.

lately

2006-06-22T16:45:27Z

i feel like theres no one to talk to anymore
and its mostly my fault
= \
cuz i dont talk to people
or let them listen
barely anyone knows the truth
or whats going on right now..

im just scared that everyones gonna hate me : (
cuz its so wrong of me..
:(

i love you guys<3

adasdasd

2006-06-22T16:43:08Z

She's a liar
It comes to this
All we had till now is gone
And I'm the other
Piece to this
Everytime I feel this inside
I don't wanna be the one who...

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it coming so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lie is getting old

update.

2006-06-22T16:37:57Z

so lets see
finals today and tomorrow
today i took a tech theatre one..
they changed it it was sooo hard
but ill get an A anyways..
because i did a lot of work
and stuff =D

next i have english comp.
no final..i dont even have to go
but i want to make up a test i missed
i need to make it up
so i get out at 1150

tomorrow i get out at 930! cuz i dont have 4th
im excited
cuz im hangin out with someone
that i shoudnt be = \
but hes my friend
and we can still hang out
we're going to the docks
maybe someone else will come..
idk
but yea!
930
hes making me : (
hes gonna be here after school..
and make me go there : (
its gonna be cold!
ahhh.

but yea
on top of all that..
someones mad at me
that really shouldnt be..
but w/e
you can only do so much i guess
i suppose i shouldnt be honest about my feelings?
sorry.
but i had to say something

but yea!
im going to florida i think
asjdhaksjhdjk
from the 16th to the 1st
i think
ogmogmogmgomgogmogm im excited

i love you guys
:)
ill be home at 12ish

have a good day everyone!!
<3<3<3

ah snap.

2006-06-21T18:59:38Z

I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much
When I just wanna kiss you
Tell me what's the issue

Baby am I doing too much

I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time
And you know I'm looking fly trying to meet some other guys
But it gets hard sometimes cuz there ain't no one just like you
I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me going through

All i can picture is the color of your eyes, and the way u make me smile
I ain't felt this in a while,
But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin

The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem, sometimes I
Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy

ahhh i cant

2006-06-21T18:56:23Z

find agood lj layout
i need one
asdhasaklsd
and i work today
:'(

but yea!
bored!

They

2006-06-20T16:08:35Z

fucking said grade cutoff was wed
now theyre saying today
THEY CANT DO THAT
wtf
asdjfhakjsfhdkla
im freaking out again
asdfhkl

last night

2006-06-20T14:20:48Z

was terrible
i had the worst panic attack ever
and ive never had one
and i didnt know what to do
and it was so scary
and terrible : (
god.

when i think about it
it like
starts up
kind of
not close to how bad it was before though
ah :(

update..ish

2006-06-19T18:12:58Z

bleh basically i dont know what to do
i dont know what i want
blahblahblah
im gay.

basically..but yea
and on top of a ll that
i feel so weak : (
like my body is like ahhhh
and it hurts
and i feel like im gonna faint : (
and my arms wont stop shaking: (
and i dont know whats wrong
ajklhalskjhdlkajshdklajsd
its so frustratingg
bleh

and i also feel bad cuz im hurting people
and im gay
and i wish i wasnt

and i dyed my hair
reddish brown
its okay
dont like it too much
ill take pics
bleh
need to do work!!
<3<3

man

2006-06-15T20:27:36Z

you really realize who your friends are after things.

thanks everyone who was there, for being there for me through this.

and thank you dezi, for yelling at me.

hahaha

k thanks bye

i hate myself

2006-06-15T19:31:09Z

more than anyone can imagine.

now i look at myself and i see nothing : (

i have

2006-06-07T19:41:39Z

HHADNOSLEPTJOSHDJKLASD

had no sleep..
forever
and im dying from sleep..non...ness..
hahahahahahahahaha
and its my faukt
and i work
til tues
god i could kill right now.
hahahahaha
<3

xcrimson_slutx @ 2006-06-01T13:16:00

2006-06-01T20:15:48Z

im wearing a sweatshirt and sweats
its fucking hott.
:(

<3

OMFG

2006-05-31T18:30:12Z

i really..like..wish he'd die.
im so pissed
omfg
asdkhaskjhdaklshdk
you have no idea
i really wish
he was like..
asdjkashdjklasd

he isnt human
how could you do something like that
what an asshole
god ajkshdajkshdklasdasda

xcrimson_slutx @ 2006-05-31T09:07:00

2006-05-31T16:07:38Z

so im with mike again
...yea i know
shutup
but the good news
hes coming
asdkhaslhdaksljda
sdajkshdjklashdjkahsdjasjkasd
july 18-27asdashdasdk
asdaklshdkljasd

YAYYYY
i get sex.

jkkkkkkkkkkkk

i get a kiss
hahah
:)
im excited!
and i love him
:)